Sunday, May 10, 2009

To lose 5kg more.

It's less than a month till the big day. Quite nervous. I am attempting an almost impossible feat of losing 5kg more until final fitting day on 2 June 09. OMG.

Can I? I sure hope so....

I am not trying to be skinny coz I know I can't. Just want to look healthier & hopefully radiant.

Heh....

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Quick updates of my boring life.

In 50 days time, I will be single-no-more. It's quite nerve-wrecking.

In 2 weeks time, I will be going for my 2nd outfit selection. I hope I can fit into that purple gorgeous outfit. I've lost another 3kg since we went for the 1st selection. I told them I will lose another 10kg! Hah! 7kg in 2 weeks? Errr that's quite a challenge provided I spent 5 hours everyday burning off the calories aka "The Biggest Loser" season. (Psst... but I've already lost 13kg in total... happiness!!)

I've been feeling quite stress lately with projects at work, bathrooms renovations & of course wedding preparations. Sometimes I feel under-appreciated. Someone said that "I am nothing, I only control kids unlike him (a NATO) who controls the world". I don't control my kids (students), I hope to make them realise their mistakes, try to advise them, give them choices and hope for the best. I guess there are still people out there who feels that being a teacher is a simple task as any Tom, Dick & Harry could excel in it.

I guess they are a firm believer of "Those who can't do, teach!" Some even said that being a teacher, one is NOT really out in the REAL world because one is sheltered in the comfort of the school - only mixing with pupils & fellow colleagues.

I feel that for one to know whether all that is true, one has to put oneself in a teacher's shoes - mine is size 11 ladies... ;)
It takes a brave person to try out any job first before making such comments.
I don't criticize your job, so don't criticize mine.

Was I affected by the comments? I would be lying if I say NO. But it takes a level-headed person (haha...oh boy, I am so 'not shy') to take it in her stride and say, "Oh well... if you say so...."

Back to the renovation works. I was pissed off with the long duration & not up-to-expectations standard. I am not a demanding person by nature but I expect great service if not good workmanship especially if the cost of the project is not cheap.

I was made to sound like one demanding biatch with the constant sms-ing & calls. I nit picked because I was promised good workmanship, thus I expect a decent one. Don't give me sloppy work - I won't mind it if I paid $20 for it. With the amount that I am forking out, I expect worth-that-money kind of workmanship. So I emailed all the faults to be repaired with the clearly labelled photographs and simple instructions for the workers to follow through.

Mak said I am a "kakak cerewet" jokingly. I think I am. Someone had to be the bad person. I CANNOT always give in & whine about it later. Mak doesn't really comment much. The bro is always coming home late. So I am left to make most of the decisions - even when I was at work. I even had to resort to drawing the design I wanted just so that they won't misunderstood what I wanted!

Because of one incompetent worker who didn't listen to instructions, everyone was made to feel frustrated - having to come in to clean up his mess. I know they were not at fault but I do not want to live with the damages for the next few years & lament..."What if I have.....?"

I was so touched & really appreciated B's effort to make that call. He put the message across firmly that we were disappointed with the long duration, long waiting time, not-so-neat finishings and etc. After that, I received an apology call and a promise that all faults will be fixed by today.

People would try to take advantage of you if you are too nice & just accept inefficiency. Strange, when I told one of them that I wanted the wall tiles to be fixed, they said they can't do it. I kept quiet. I heard noises and when I checked, they were removing it and fixing it and guess what???!!! The defected wall tile looks perfect. So much for cannot get it fix! Haiz... so see why I had to be a b*tch sometimes.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Only God Knows.

I miss him so much. Only God knows how much I am missing him.

I look okay on the surface but nobody knows that everyday I wish my dad will be home when I get home from work.

I miss him terribly.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Life after 7 May 08.

I may look fine when I'm @ work or out with lunch with friends.

But only God knows how painful it is to lose someone dear to your heart.

Everytime when I sit alone or when I was reading the Surah Yaasin, my memory of my father becomes very clear. I cried. I miss him so much.

Like I said, only God knows how much I love and miss him.

When friends & family asked how we are, I can only say, "We're okay. But we're still sad."

But how sad, you can never measure that.

I am sad but I have to put it aside when I go to work. I have to put a brave front when I am out to run errands or when I meet family & friends.

Sometimes it is so diffcult.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

You won't know how I feel unless you have experienced it before.

I know it's fated. Stop telling me that! Leave me alone to mourn his death.

Go away!